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The Power of Reclaiming My Asian Name

Like many Asian Americans, I have long spurned my full name. A wave of racism made me say: No more.

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In the spring of 2021, at the height of violence against Asians and Asian Americans during the pandemic, my husband and I chose to eat dinner at a Vietnamese restaurant near where we live in South Florida — in a show of solidarity with our community. As we finished our beef noodle soup and paid the check, a White man, who was sitting with his family at the table next to us, started mocking the accents of our waiter and the cook, loud enough for the entire room to hear. Besides the staff, we were the only people of Asian descent in the establishment.

As a Chinese American journalist who had been covering anti-Asian attacks, I was all too familiar with the scenario and how it could easily escalate into violence. I had recently interviewed 61-year-old Noel Quintana, whose face was slashed cheek-to-cheek with a box knife while he was on his way to work on the New York subway. Another victim I spoke to, Iona Cheng, was tackled to the ground as she delivered a Christmas gift near Oakland’s Jack London Square — not far from where I used to hang out with friends growing up  in the Bay Area.

After my stories published, I was accosted online, with racist tweets and emails. To protect myself, I started wearing sunglasses in public often, to obscure my race. I became a bit of a recluse, not wanting to leave the apartment. One person I had interviewed recommended that I carry a personal alarm.

The Vietnamese meal was one of my first ventures out since the start of the pandemic. As this man continued his ridicule for what felt like 10 minutes, nobody in the packed restaurant reacted. Our tables were separated only by makeshift partitions made of blinds tacked onto a clothing rack for social distancing. My husband, who is also Chinese, stood up and glared at the man. My personal alarm was in my purse, ready to emit a high-pitched sound with a touch of a button. The man shut up, and then I bolted for the parking lot.

As had been the case  so many times in my life — when I was repeatedly asked where I was from or told to go back there — I avoided conflict at all costs. Like many immigrants, I had long believed that the nail that sticks up gets hammered down.

When my husband caught up to me before I reached the car, he asked me to stop running. “We need to stand up and stand tall,” he said. “We need to be proud of who we are and look people in the eye.” This was coming from a man who had suffered countless bouts of racism after immigrating from Hong Kong to Florida during high school. At age 14, his barber nicknamed him “Charlie,” off the Vietnam War-era racial slur.

I was born in the United States, but I was very much caught between two cultures. In my traditional immigrant family, I learned Mandarin first. Then, starting in kindergarten, I had to take English-as-a-second-language classes and speech therapy, and had a rough time fitting in. So, I  became a journalist with hopes of squashing stereotypes. But while I was proactively calling out racism in my stories, I wasn’t doing the same in my personal life — not even with my own name.

For my community, names are potent symbols that can encompass the dynamics on display that day in South Florida: bigotry, shame, fear, but also pride. Whether they are learning English as a second language or bringing lunches to school that smell “rotten,” plenty of Asian Americans find that their full name is just one more way they stick out. And so, many assimilate through changing or adjusting their given names.  I was no exception: Over the years, I’d essentially erased the middle two words of the name on my birth certificate: Marian Chia-Ming Liu.

The conversation outside that restaurant with my husband — coupled with my experience covering the increase in anti-Asian sentiments and violence — made me realize I needed to stop hiding. And my name, I decided, was a good place to start.


Chinese names are incredibly purposeful. Many of them, explains Nancy Yao Maasbach, president of the Museum of Chinese in America in New York, are made up of three characters steeped with meaning. First up is the family name, known as the last name in many Western cultures and similarly taken from the father’s side.  This is followed by a name that is shared with your generation, often paternal cousins. Finally, there is the person’s individual name. These names literally show not only our ties to family and history, but how we put them first. So, my full Chinese name is Liu Chia-Ming.

As part of being ashamed of my name, I’ve never corrected how English speakers pronounce my last name, and further concealed my identity by introducing myself as the Anglicized “loo.” (A snarky reader once emailed me to criticize a concert review I wrote as a music critic but first said my last name reminded him of the bathroom.) It’s actually pronounced “LEE-ō” (柳) and means “willow tree.” My mom’s maiden name is Ling (林), meaning “forest,” and together with my dad’s last name they represent a beautiful partnership.

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The middle character is one I share with all my first cousins on my father’s side. It comes from a poem that dates back to the Qin dynasty, 221 B.C. Each generation takes the next word. Other cultures that use pictographs in their languages, like Japanese and Korean, says Maasbach, also use poems in their names. While it’s spelled out as “Chia” in English, it’s pronounced more like “Jiā” (家) and means “home” — which is particularly significant to me as a journalist who has moved across the country and world for work.

Lastly, my individual name — like a first name in English — is Ming (明). (The same character as former NBA player Yao Ming’s name.) Combined with the middle character, the name is rather masculine; my grandfather didn’t want me to be the kind of woman who needed a man to depend on. One side of the character is a sun and the other the moon. Together, the character means “bright,” and next to my grandfather’s name, Tsong (聪明), the resulting phrase means “smart.”

My parents also gave me “Marian” as my first name, separate from my individual Chinese name, out of American custom. “Because everybody has English names,” says my mom. It is derived from both the first letter of my individual name, Ming, and the Christian Mary.

Maasbach says Chinese American names symbolize not only our roots, but often point to our journey to America. When visitors come into the Museum of Chinese in America, she can within a few minutes place them — based on how their names are spelled in English, whether they are Anglicized and what Chinese characters are used — in a range of possible immigration periods.

Doug Chan, president of the Chinese Historical Society of America, notes that “while the stories about Chinese last names speak to us about the immigration experience, the first names of Chinese Americans tell another story about the inner journey that our families, and each of us as individuals, have traveled within U.S. society.” For the first name, he says, “the choice reflects not only more deliberation but also the idea of assimilation.”


Many Asian immigrants end up adopting or being assigned Anglicized names to fit in. “The experience is very common but very under-researched,” says clinical psychologist Ranjana Srinivasan, linking it to the “ model minority myth” that Asians are successful immigrants even if faced with obstacles. She changed her own Indian name several times to “be more pronounceable,” experimenting with Rita, Jay and even Rah Rah. After realizing she was “trying to meet the needs of White culture” in college, she went back to Ranjana, which is of Hindu religious origin and means “delightful.”

Now she works with Asian patients on similar struggles. In 2019, she published a qualitative study for Columbia University on name-based microaggressions within the South Asian American population. The study found that while some patients felt proud to be unique and carry their family’s legacy, others felt that their names were the most inconvenient part of their lives — one that meant they “never get to seamlessly join a company or participate in a meeting, because it’s always a battle.” The name struggle can also lead to depression and anxiety, says Srinivasan, because of “mixed feelings about their own culture and belongingness in your own skin.” This, she adds, is “the price you pay for being American.”

Her study was published before the spike in anti-Asian violence during the pandemic. The FBI found that in 2020, hate crimes against Asian people jumped 73 percent. According to a Pew Research Center study conducted in April 2021, one-third of Asian Americans fear threats and physical attacks. “The pandemic has made Asians in America, even those who are native-born citizens, acutely aware that they are perpetual foreigners in the eyes of some of their neighbors and even friends,” says Frank Wu, president of City University of New York’s Queens College and author of “Yellow: Race in America Beyond Black and White.”

Yet lately Srinivasan has also seen that “people are recognizing the importance of representation and holding one’s culture as an important part of who they are.” After the names of the victims of the Atlanta spa shootings were released in March of 2021, there was a movement on social media to not only say their names but to also pronounce them correctly. The Asian American Journalists Association even released a pronunciation guide.

Maasbach also noticed this trend. “My dad gave us all names to make it easier to get Western names just to fit in more” — but now, she says, it’s more about “respecting the names for what they are, so we’ve definitely seen a shift in people owning those [Asian]  names.”

My mom, like many in the community, had the sad experience of being renamed by teachers for their convenience. “That’s just how things were done if you planned to study abroad,” she says. Her Chinese name is Wan In, but she was renamed “Wanda” by an American professor in her dentistry program “because it was easier for them to remember you.”

Newer generations of immigrants are not entertaining a name change at all. In 2020, Vietnamese student Phuc Bui Diem Nguyen pushed back when a college professor asked her to Anglicize her name because it reminded him of an insult in English. Screenshots of the email exchange trended on Twitter. And in 2017, after tags with East Asian names were torn off doors at Columbia University dorms, Chinese students got together and made a video explaining what their names meant.

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“I think changing names to ‘blend in’ or in exchange for not being attacked or bullied, first of all, doesn’t work,” says Huhe Yan, who was part of the group of Columbia students who produced the video and is now a management consultant in Hong Kong. “Racism against Asians in the U.S. is not going to stop with everyone changing their names to Jason and Mary. What will make a difference is for Asians to have a seat at the table, be in positions of power, be visible.”

Campaigns like My Name, My Identity in the San Francisco Bay area are starting to pop up, where educators, parents, community members and students take a pledge to pronounce students’ names correctly and honor their backgrounds. Yee Wan, who spearheads the program, which launched in 2016, hopes to create a better sense of belonging in schools than she experienced when she immigrated at 17 — and her ESL teacher renamed her “Winnie.”


In 2021, we had our first big-budget cinematic Asian superhero in Marvel Studios’ “ Shang-Chi and the Legend of the Ten Rings.” Not only was the protagonist’s name Chinese, but the name of the Chinese Canadian actor, Simu Liu, wasn’t Anglicized either. (Shang-Chi went by “Shaun” while in hiding in the United States.) In the movie, Shang-Chi’s father explains why Chinese names are important, saying, “Names are sacred. They connect us not only to ourselves, but everyone who came before.”

The burden shouldn’t be on our community to change, says Srinivasan, but on the wider culture to accept who we are. “We’ve done tons of work to make sure we acclimated,” she says. “And so now it’s their turn.”

After I ran away from that dreadful restaurant incident, my husband challenged me to reclaim my name as a way to be proud of who I am.  He further dared me to drop my American name in lieu of my Chinese one. But that doesn’t tell my whole story either. Instead I’m going to start by telling folks I have a Chinese name and how to properly pronounce my last name.

So let me reintroduce myself: My full name and complete byline is Marian Chia-Ming Liu. Chia is pronounced with a J, like Jiā. Liu like Leo. And yes, it includes all four words. I’m proud of it all, because it represents my complete self, Asian and American.

Marian Chia-Ming Liu is an Operations Editor at The Washington Post, where she manages digital operations for the Metro section. She contributes to The Post’s newsletter on race and identity, About US, covering topics from the attacks on the Asian community to Korean pop music.

Illustrations and calligraphy by Sally Deng. Design and art direction by Clare Ramirez.

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This post originally appeared on The Washington Post and was published January 5, 2022. This article is republished here with permission.

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